Finnaly! I manage to get into Eclipse. I decided to make some big change in my life. I have done some. Umm,

First, I become Emo, more evil and then also Psycho (That's me)

Second, I add a new hobby, write poetry and learning about mythology. I found them fun. Do poetry thing is fun, well, although I always write something dark and black and cruel and psycho. heh heh

Third? My Adult instinct begin grow. Now, I want to try working... Also, I become a bit dilligent than ever.. heheh...

Later~

Nursery Rhymes

Sing a song of sixpence a pocket full of rye,
Four and twenty blackbirds baked in a pie.
When the pie was opened the birds began to sing,
Oh wasn't that a dainty dish to set before the king?
The king was in his counting house counting out his money,
The queen was in the parlour eating bread and honey
The maid was in the garden hanging out the clothes,
When down came a blackbird and pecked off her nose!

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Anyone know this song? Yeah, it's one of the nursery rhymes. I like it because of my friends. especially this one, a song of six pence. There's another one I like. Baa Baa Black Sheep

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Baa Baa Black Sheep

Do you have any wool?

Yes sir, yes sir

Three bags full

one for my master, one for the dame,

and one for the bow who live down in a lane

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I know those song from the comics I borrow from my friends, titled Godchild. Anyone have read this novel? Tell me if you are. hehehe. oh yeah. I'm addicted to goth. Lolita or something else,I don't care. hwee...

Ah, I want make a Visual Novel.. Anyone want to help me please?

Adagio "Moonlight" Sonata

Agh! this song is totally AWESOME! You're a real genius, Beethoven! hehe, I'm learning to play this song on myself. I'm totally in love with this song when I heard it for the first time. It's slow, and hypnotizing. But, when I play this song, it's really tired. the notes makes you must stretch your fingers, and it's hurt.

EXAAAM!

OH GOSH! Today I is the D-DAY! The Royal Exam is todaay! NOO!

Arg, the Examiner is soo nice, friendly and pleasant..... from the experience, the pleasant examiner always giving a small scores! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGHHHHH!

ok....

pieces went first. I must play 3 songs.

First song....
Ugh, my gosh, good heaven! I do it badly, verry baad~

Second song.....
Actually, this is my favorite, but I'm so nervous. Fortunately, I could do it better that the first, but still, mistakes happened a lot~

Third song....
Better and the best!

after that, go on scale yeah..

All da major I can do it, but minor, NOO~
Chromatic scales, OK
Arpeggios, OK
Dominant Seventh, OK

- next, Aural Test-

"Aural test begin with smile" he said (wahz da hell)
I'm pretty sure that I can pass this quite easily. Yeah... But sadly, I didn't understand what didi he mean in the last question. So I just guess it, yeah~

well, the conclusion is.....

I'm pretty sure, that I can pass. If I can pass this exam, I'm 4th grade! YEAH~ But if I fail...... well, just face my destiny. ahaha

The exam just takes 17 minutes, but I'm sooo nervous.... hua~ It's so scary...

WHAZ DA HELL?

Wew... so many things happen in the same day! WHAZ DA HELL! I'm freaking boring in class, and the lesson! uh, Can't they make the books lighter? It's saturday, S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y, The day when people enjoy their life after 6 freaking exhausting dayss.

But after that, my extra curricular ain't boring at all. today, we have a debate. Not a real debate of course, but our senior must form a new team, 3-man-cells, so our school can enter a debate contest. waai~ the person who stay till the end, participate the debate, and see the crazy things, only me and Eishexe. Waw~

First, the topic is Economy condition. That's kinda boring, yes, but still, me amazed to Eishexe. Study at America for 2 or 3 years doesn't useless. Her speech is soo good, really. But I can asked a boy with a question that kill him. HAHA!

After that, our senior perform the right debate, like the rules, etc. And the topic is about sx education in elementary school.. Wew, I laughed too much. One of our senior talking about those taboo thing, like... you know what I mean. or someone called Mr. Fool, stupid, idiot things, and one of them who says something crazy, not once, but yeah... more than twice of course. but his expression, it's straight, real STRAIGHT, INNOCENT face. wew~

Today~

I don't like my home. Don't know why, but the most fear, I feel it there. It's kinda strange. most people feel comfortable at home, with family, with their pet. But strangely, I'm not. I ain't feel comfortable with my family. My mum, my dad, especially, my sister. don't know why. Oh, but the most fearful is my car. I always get blamed inside my car, usually in the morning or after school. I just feel calmer if I'm around eishexe, my friend, inside my bedroom, or in front of my computer, sometimes when I'm chatting with Fei, I can be the real me. Or, when I'm at Acolyte School.

September...

At least I have a holiday! Although it's just one day. It's a relief to me. I really tired now. Everyday, my lessons finished at 2 pm and then, I have a private course. whether it is math or chemistry. I hate school! uh

But I finished 'Talent Reincarnation' yesterday and now I have a brilliant idea for Noir Sakura. Yahoo!

I have a biology experiment this afternoon. It's enjoyable. I had to see microorganism in the water and all of them was amusing! I found one which looks like shrimp, big, but transparent. Also Paramecium, which moves very fast, and it's so big among the other! I run after it, but at least, left over. haha, it's the biggest I have seen.

Last week, I have a chemistry experiment. We must burn a Mg (Magnesium). It turns white slowly and at the end, BUM! It's sparkle, just like a fireworks. Wow. After that, I did an experiment with Mg again. We put it into HCl, Chloric acid (don't know how to write it in english) after the magnesium gone, our teacher (we did it in group) lit a fire right upon the tube. and whuut! the substance made a strange voice, sounds like a certain fireworks. And then the tube became warm. It's cute! tee hee

Elf, Dragon, Human and Vampire

It started around a few days ago. A friend of mine, from the next class ask me if I can help her to make a new story. It's about school, which sort of kinda like hogwarts, There's 4 clan, she said, Elves, Dragons, Humans, and also Vampires. A great idea I think! Yeah, yeah... she said that she would take the Greek gods and goddesses for the story. yaay..

My seat mate gets a problem with his knee.. haha, it's not funny, It felt odd. but I care a little for him. Uh oh, may he doesn't read these. I can lost my face completely if yes, duh.

I can get along well with all of my friends. It's not a miracle for most people, but for me, it is. Usually, I can't get along with people in a long time, or so quickly. May be it's because I'm anti-social? hmm, not really, I'm not that bad. But maybe I am emo...

Fans!

Duh I don't know which one I should start with. There's too many thing I want to write...

Okey, Let's starts with my Noir Sakura. I made it since I'm still at 3rd grade, Junior High School. Noir Sakura is a story about top-secret dark you can say, organization. the main character's name is Hoshino Vincentius Regen Kaito. Short, Hoshino Kaito. the other main character, also my favourite, is Allyster. Nimfellius Firenze Allyster Cerebellum Kaito, no short (do you think it's too long?) A friend of mine ask me whether I can bring the story. Her brother wants to read it. So, when there's reading time, on Friday, I brought it. And, everybody around me wanted to see it. Oh gosh,their reaction were same, some even asked me to make their puppet shows dialogue. But because of that, I gain a fan of Allyster. My friend, Ruth. yippiie..

Hmm, I have a week of test this time. tomorrow, I have English and Geographic test, Oh, how I hate those star and the sky ball.
Fail at Sociology, but get highest score for Biology, YEAH!

What else?

I get Naruto manga scan from my friend, hehe, I almost sisn't study because read those manga scans. It reaaly makes me excited, coz I almost never read any manga scans. He is so kind.. that boy. hehe, that doesn't mean I like him, just feel like he is kind, no other. I laughing a lot at school, probably because of my friends stories. Maybe a new school doesn't soo bad

Human Being

No WAY.. there's no difference.. now I hope I have a time reverse and get back that time, repair all my mistakes.. No way, there's no way out.

I can't understand, why she doesn't want to forgive me? Is that so bad? I don't think so... Maybe for her it's fatal and she doesn't want to forgive it, but, are every human perfect? NO! no one's perfect! every human has his own weakness, man or woman. That's why we have an ability to forgiving, right? right right right?

man, this is drive me crazy. I think I will commit suicide without even myself know.

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*sigh* I have a flag ceremony today. 17th of August is Indonesia independence day. I'd like the ceremony if I don't have any trouble. Because of yesterday, I can not do anything correctly. It trapped in my heart, as if it stabbed something inside my chest. I can't eat a lot, maybe I can not sleep tonight. All because of my faults. Duh, someone help me, please!

Trouble, Pain, and Friend

I get myself trouble today, at English subject. luckily, I can resolve it. troublesome, really.. it's troublesome. But I can go home early today. No chemical experiment, means go home early.

But.. but.. I don't know, did I said something wrong? I acknowledge it, yes, but.. I didn't mean it!

REALLY I DIDN'T MEAN IT!

I don't know, did I really that bad? did I really that.... that Jerk? that disgust, did I?

if yes, I'm sorry, I know I'm wrong. If you read this blog and don't want to forgive me, it's OK. But if you can, please forgive me. please...

I don't want to lose my friend again, it's hurt. The pain is unbearable. I'm harsh, but I'm a scared cat. If I lose my friend once again, I couldn't forgive myself

Moods, practising, and piano

I don't know, it seems that in this week, I'm really sensitive, moody. My mod swings like the wind, never knows where it will blows. Luckily, now, I'm not in the mood to get angry.

I'm currently in my preparation for Royal violin exam (u know, it's kinda like international exam) . It's only a month later, but I haven't ready yet, I'm scared. I always in tense condition. luckily, my play is better than yesterday I practice with piano.

I like to play piano too, although I'm not good at it. Also, I haven't played since eight months ago. Yesterday, I try to plays it, and surprisingly, I still good! Even when I try Chopin Nocturne this evening, I still can remember it bit by bit, and play it slowly. I still can read it correctly..